Getting my thoughts in order

[shadesofmauve]

I've been thinking more about my physical issues than I have in ages. A few years ago my body stopped the trend of adding new minor failures every couple of years (knock on wood, fingers crossed, etc), and at some point even minor new additions (that one winter with the nasty hip pain, for instance) are just... expected. It's not a big deal, unless it packs a bit more punch. I'd kind of reached a point where I thought a lot of the processing was done -- appearance uncertainty isn't so much an issue with a sweetheart who thinks you're hot, I'm learning to expect and cope with reynauds instead of letting it frustrate me, and I've bicycled a gods-damned century, which gave quite a bit of punch to the "I can do what I damn well want, bad leg or no" feeling.

I've got quite a few thoughts I'd like to get out there for others, but untangling them is hard -- there's stuff that's new and raw, stuff that's old hat for me but might be helpful to someone else. So far things fit roughly into two buckets:

- What you owe other people in your life and when and when not to be a teachable moment

- What is normal? Stuff that comes out in my writing... that I don't notice. ('poser' feeling is probably related to this)

- knowing your own body

...that both need longer posts. I'm sure there are some other over-arching themes, but I need my head to be lest messed up in order to write about 'em. I'm running on emotional empty, now.

Comments

[westrider.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I really hear you on the "what is normal?" bit. I feel sometimes like I've completely lost touch with every conceivable Benchmark for normal, some of the reactions I get from people.

[stasia]

*big hugs*

I wish I could do something more direct to help, but all I can offer is two ears, two shoulders, and as many hugs as you need.

Stasia