Today=Miserable

[shadesofmauve]

For the last few weeks I've been able to feel the nagging, insiduous depression-monster every-other day or so. I've been fending it off, and it's pretty obvious - dude, that's chemistry thinking - and if it's obvious, it's not bad.

But it's grey, I gave the car a flat because I'm stupid, there are no cuddles, I was offered the schedule I wan't and can't afford to take it, and Marik and Vaer are having a fight in my head. About his (multiple?) bastard children. How come the love story in my head usually skips the snoogling and goes right to drama? (without going right to plot, which makes actually writing it more difficult).

Actually, observing the whole mars/venus* thing is really pretty entertaining, mostly because I totally know where both sides are coming from, and it's like watching ships pass in the fog. At high speed. Repeatedly. And one of them is a zippy zodiac raft crewed by a drunk monkey.

I stayed awake for hours again last night
searching for a reason to keep up the fight
I've made choices that I don't regret but
I've got problems I don't get

Let's wait one more day for the conversation
One more day to make it right
Let's get away from the confrontation
One more day just buying time

*Not just sexist stereotypes - there's a really big class discrepency and some culture shock going on too (see, I'd never abandon my belief that both genders are capable of being perfectly reasonable**).

**This doesn't mean that any given individual of either gender is capable of being reasonable, though.

Comments

[jaktek.livejournal.com]

let me know if you need a ride tomorrow, I'm actually going to game this time.

also, we should hang.

[shadesofmauve]

Jon's picking me up tomorrow, but if I ride home with you we could catch up. Want to bring your cello to the shop Saturday? I'll call you today.

Um...and you do know you died, right?

[jaktek.livejournal.com]

sounds good!
And yes, I found out yesterday but I've managed some quick thinking and I've got a new character that I'm excited to bring into play.

[shadesofmauve]

Sweet! Last time was pretty fun (aside from your unfortunate death, of course). I'm having to explain my apparently anti-druidic actions at every turn, so I have some sympathy for your paladin troubles (So burn the forest - fire is part of the natural cycle. Cut down the tree - a badger will love under it. It's really okay!).

[jaktek.livejournal.com]

Rick's got me started at level two, so I'm not as effective as I was hoping I'd be (what with starting as Monk, I've got no money at all). Still need some light armor badly so my armor class stops being 14. Should definitely enjoy playing this character more than the paladin.

[shadesofmauve]

Yeah, he's been starting any new chars one level behind the average.

I'm eagerly awaiting level four and my aminal (chose to wait until lvl 4 so I'd have a beefier aminal).

[nei-tan.livejournal.com]

*hugs!*

chemistry's a real bitch, man. last week was all stress at work, plus the ever-popular hormones exacerbating the situation. lame!

also, WE should hang. you should come up here and meet my kitties (and roommate/boyfriend), or i should come down and see your apartment, or... *gasp* both? :)

you're right, we definitely need to work on seeing each other more than one a year.

[shadesofmauve]

Yes! Yes we should!

We could even meet in Tacoma for lunch some weekend (Hooray for long city bus rides). You're always welcome down here. You could even use my new penguin-shaped martini shaker. :) *hugs* Hope you feel better soon! I'd like to get up to Seattle...not sure when. Silly transportless Saja.