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Seeking Clarity
May 3rd, 2005 02:38 pmWell, here I am again, after my much anticipated cross country juncket, looking at th reality of the next few months.
First off, thingz ain't bad. By June 11 I'll have that BA. I have great friends and family. The weather's been nice. That said, my giant backlog of workload is compounded with my wandering mind, confusion and regrets about the NYC trip, and occasional bouts of stress. So once again, even though it will bore everyone to tears, I'm hammering out my to-do list on livejournal just to try to make sense of my life.
After all, projects you can pin down, emotions you can't. I suppose on some level I'll always be more comfortable with my work - it's quite cowardly of me.
( to-do, ta da! )
Somehow, instead of being motivated, I want to take a nap. I was doing okay, but then I had a 'back to the drawing board' type meeting with Sharron today, and H at Infocare e-mailed a 'what's a time estimate, how much time can you devote' question. I really want someone to cuddle...preferably someone to cuddle who'd also make dinner and tell me to ignore them all. Unfortunatley I think this type of useless desire tends to get me in trouble, so I'll go make hot cocoa and start pounding away at my list.
First off, thingz ain't bad. By June 11 I'll have that BA. I have great friends and family. The weather's been nice. That said, my giant backlog of workload is compounded with my wandering mind, confusion and regrets about the NYC trip, and occasional bouts of stress. So once again, even though it will bore everyone to tears, I'm hammering out my to-do list on livejournal just to try to make sense of my life.
After all, projects you can pin down, emotions you can't. I suppose on some level I'll always be more comfortable with my work - it's quite cowardly of me.
( to-do, ta da! )Somehow, instead of being motivated, I want to take a nap. I was doing okay, but then I had a 'back to the drawing board' type meeting with Sharron today, and H at Infocare e-mailed a 'what's a time estimate, how much time can you devote' question. I really want someone to cuddle...preferably someone to cuddle who'd also make dinner and tell me to ignore them all. Unfortunatley I think this type of useless desire tends to get me in trouble, so I'll go make hot cocoa and start pounding away at my list.
