I need to art more.

So many skills are slipping away. It's especially obvious since I've been spending more time in fandom, which seems to be populated with people who can not only draw, but draw fast (which has always been hard for me). Incidentally, that also makes it clear how far away from the cartoon/illo/most-fan-art style I am, and how far towards classical fine art.

Those of you (Hi, fenmere!) who know how far I've always been from fine art will find that pretty funny, I'm thinkin, but the fact is almost all of my recent drawing has been sketch portraiture/gesture. In theory that kind of practice should help you draw beleivably alive people from imagination, but no. I can't tell if my skills have gotten that much worse or I've just gotten more critical; possibly some of both.

I'm still a reasonably good critic. Finding stuff to fix in other people's work is always easier! But I kind of despair of my own skills.

On a rational level, I realize that I have a house, a yarden, a trio that's getting more and more gigs even without putting any time in marketing or a demo, and a for-fun writing project that has become both more time-consuming and more fulfilling than I ever thought it would be. Something has to give.

But art's the thing that's given for so damn long.

I suppose it means I should knuckle down on the studio project, but that's seems so damn far away.

drugs

I think I may have over-caffeinated myself again, because I am loopy.