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My guard was down. I was in the shower after a stressful day and a good music session. I was mostly thinking about bed, and I'd had two mugs of kahlua-and-coffee at the pub. The first inspiration sensed this weakness, sidled out of a dark alley, and started panhandleing.

"Yo, mate -- why haven't you done anything with that Hamlin story/art concept? That was some good shit."

"The antagonists weren't defined. Why would any society turn away from making art and music?"

"Well, it's the critics. Obviously."

This dirty-future idea and I got down to some serious art-world debate, and thus engaged with imagery and meaning for art about the Children of Hamlin, a concept totally unrelated to my world-building (which has hit some slow spots), I was unprepared for the one-two punch WITH A GIANT BRICK that was the 2nd inspiration, coming at me from behind.

Lying dazed on the floor of the bathtub*, robbed of all my cash (which I take with me to the shower -- don't you?), I was left with only the knowledge of how the World-Breaking and Waking were brought to pass, those huge, pivotal story-points of Calenthe that haven't had a good explanation for some ten years.

And I didn't want to write it, because it's terrible. It's dark, and it's probably overly symbolic, and it tends towards the kind of inevitability that I don't like to give in to, and my dragons die. And they won't come back. I promised. But those dragons saw me through a lot of tough times, and I'm not sure about this.

Still, when an idea hits that fast, that hard, that completely, and bothers me that much, it must be powerful, right? Damn thing left a metaphorical knot on my head the size of a goose-egg. And stole my credit card. The hamlin-bum made off with my keys. I've been tag-teamed by inspiration.

That kahlua must be good stuff.

*Some hyperbole here.
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No.

I am a Damn Fine Artist.

This marks the end of this month's anti-fine-art theme, for a number of reasons. The first is that I'm more bizarre than usual when I've been up past my bedtime recently. This fact has prompted research into the exact moment of my appropriate bedtime, and current theory holds that the best possible bedtime for Skellington, from the point of view of the observer, is always roughly 3 hours prior to any given moment.

But I digress.

Firstly, I realise that my generalizations about fine art students and the uselessness of fine art are just that - gross generalizations. They exist, but I also have classmates whose work I would love to have on my walls. Two of them were critiqued today. Secondly, I realise that only people who have some background in art, or just understanding and love of being creative, would understand the glee, the potential, the excitment I feel when I look at my beautifully gessoed hardboards (Canvas sounds much nicer, but I realised last year that I don't actually like painting on canvas - you've no idea how happy I am to be discarding a medium/surface rather than adding another to my list of options. I feel decisive, especially since I'm crossing out a surface that takes a lot of frickin' work). Looking at the new 'web' section of my online portfolio I notice that some of the stuff there really isn't that shitty. Or maybe it just looks nice at 300px wide. Or maybe my vanilla latte is going to my head. Regardless.

I have now risen above it. The self centered pettiness shall scurry on below me, as if I was high on helium. In short, my Ego has reasserted itself (it helps that when Virginia was asked by some official to mention a student who was 'not nessecarily academically the top, but well rounded, intelligent, and familiar with the programs' she pointed to me). It helps that I realised that by the time I graduate I will have had work in at least five shows within a 9 month period. Possibly six shows. Quality/attendence at the shows aside (does anyone ever actually go to the B-gallery?), that's a ducky feeling. A dancing ducky feeling.

I have two musical instruments sitting at home in silent potential, three gessoed hardboards waiting for paint, sketchbooks to fill and webpages to populate. Life is good - at least until I come down off of my caffiene high. (Cost saving tip - if you quit caffeine for a month, getting that single shot gives you BUZZZ).

Now, [livejournal.com profile] fenmere, don't think for one moment that this means I'm backing out of the Propaganda Project. Quite the contrary, I'm in it with a will. With zest. Possibly even spit & vinegar. In point of fact, I have today hit on a delightful, a clever, yea, even a fiendish idea for the bombardment of the school. I'm not sure whether I can pull it off, and it will require some careful preparation, not to mention a few guaranteed casulaties - but do remember to ask me about it next time I see you.

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